I have been absent. I apologize. I am both building a business from scratch and dealing with an unusually brutal fibro flare.
I knew that building a business was going to be hard. Learning every law, keeping up with every vendor, accounts payable and receivable while also being responsible for all of the advertising, customer emails, phone calls, new products and orders...all while taking care of my home and family. Well, it's no wonder I went into flare.
For those of you who do not know anything about fibromyalgia, flare is when, for whatever reason, your entire body decides to turn the pain meter up to 10 and then laugh at you until it's good and ready to turn it back down. This is my second week at 10 - and I can handle that. After all of these years, the pain has become more of a nuisance. It's the fibro fog that gets me. The only way I know to explain fibro fog is that feeling of 'walking in a dream' or 'your head is floating' much like when you take cold medicine. Only, you haven't taken any and you can't focus.
The big problem with fibro fog is that is when I tend to lose my balance and fall down. I fell twice this week. My legs just said "You go on and try to walk, honey. Watch this!" and they laughed and laughed and laughed :)
Today has been the worst day, so I'm hoping it is at a peak and is about to let me go. I was so foggy this morning, I literally could not remember what I was supposed to do today! Luckily for me, I had discussed my agenda with my husband last night and he was off work today. So I asked him what it was that I was supposed to do today. He was so loving about it without treating me like a child. He explained to me what I needed to do and then drove me to the various places to get those things done.
I'm starting to notice that he is finally beginning to understand this disease and accommodate me. That makes my life just a little easier.
He is also building my chicken coop on his days off. I told him I wanted one. Next thing I knew, he was building it! Now- this is coming from a man who took three years to build some shelves that I needed and then only did it when I told him I was going to Walmart to buy them.
There seems to be a shift in prospective here. A welcome one.
I am hoping this flare lifts soon and I will be back to my usual self. Until then, I hope you have some really great days!
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